Searching for true love..

I have spent a lot of my time worrying about true love. Who will he be? When will I find him? Will he like me?  I used to think that it was the hardest thing to do but then this very evening I saw a mother give birth to her baby while posted in the OBGYN department. She had been in labor for hours, was in pain, exhausted and there was a lot of blood 😦

Finally she gave birth to a beautiful baby girl. Then it happened…she looked at her child for the first time and that look on her face was pure love; love for her newborn baby. It felt like she had momentarily forgotten all about her pain and despair; like her baby was the center of her world and nothing else mattered. It was then I realized that I had already found true love the day I was born.

The first thing I did after that was to call my mom and tell her how much I loved her. I don’t know why we spend years trying to find the meaning of love when it is right there in front of us.  A mother’s love is unconditional and one that is easily ignored by us. If you haven’t told your mom what she means to you, I request you do it today. Tell her how much you appreciate everything that she has done for you. It will make her day I can assure you.

 

Love Woes

You don’t know what love is
Until you’ve learned the meaning of the blues
Until you’ve loved a love you had to lose
You don’t know what love is

-Chet Baker

Is it true that you can’t love until you’ve lost? Listening to this song today made me realize that somehow love has always been related to pain and hurt. I’ve never had somebody tell me how beautiful love is or how it brought them happiness but there is always a friend who is lamenting over falling in love.

As a kid I had heard of ‘love at first sight’ and ‘happily ever after’, but I guess that is all fairy tale stuff. Nobody in real life falls in love and stays happy right?

I have loved and lost but I’m not sure if I still have found out what love is. As a matter of fact now I’m scared of it.

I feel that love should be something that brings you inner peace. Like when you are in his arms you feel home, you feel happy; a sense of belonging. Loving someone should be easy, like breathing.

What are your experiences? What is love according to you?

The Humdrum Affairs

Part 2: Being Human

“Don’t waste time thinking back to what you could have done differently. Keep your eyes on the road and do it differently now.”

I’ve spent or rather ‘wasted’  a lot of my time thinking about the past. Of all the things I did and the mistakes I made, punishing myself over and over till I reached a point in my life where misery was all that was left. It was more of a habit than anything else. “Self reproach” is the right term for it. No matter whose fault it was, I had made it my duty to feel guilty about everything.

I guess I never realized how wrong I was until one day I found that each and every person in my life was taking me for granted. They could come and do what they pleased, cause who am I gonna blame but myself? I cried that day, really cried. You know the feeling when it dawns upon you how lonely you are, or how mistaken you were all your life. I’ve never felt anything more intense than that.

After all the crying and name calling I decided to turn my life around. After all we’re only human. Living for others is good but what about you. Why give a fuck about people who couldn’t care less about you? I know that now and I don’t wanna live for anyone but myself. God has given me this one life to live and to enjoy, there is absolutely no need for me to spoil it because of someone else.

What I’m trying to say is have fun, go out, be crazy, be creative. Make mistakes, cause there is no way in hell for you to be perfect. It is okay to be a little flawed, otherwise we’d all be Gods. Wake up every morning and tell yourself – today is gonna be a wonderful day, and I’m gonna make the most of it. As hard as it is, let go of the past. You can’t change it so let’s just move on.

LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL, don’t let a moment go waste. Starting today, you are the master of your fate. And lastly remember, It’s not who you are that holds you back, It’s what you think you’re not.  So..

“TALK TO PEOPLE YOU HAVE NEVER TALKED TO BEFORE AND ACTUALLY LISTEN. HOLD YOUR HEAD UP CAUSE YOU HAVE EVERY RIGHT TO. TELL YOURSELF YOU ARE A GREAT INDIVIDUAL AND BELIEVE IN YOURSELF, BECAUSE IF YOU DON’T BELIEVE IN YOURSELF NO ONE WILL BELIEVE IN YOU EITHER.”  🙂