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I never knew it felt so good,

This sweet friction: cold metal on skin;

The ragged blades create a deep crevasse,

The pure satisfaction takes you in.

I watch as the ruddy drops fall down slowly,

Creating a vast ocean of red;

What was once the life coursing through my veins,

Is now the remnant of my pain and dread.

I feel my heart beat slowing down,

The sound now echoes through the room;

I’m wondering why I feel no pain,

Is it supposed to end so soon?

No remorse, no guilt, no sorrow,

I lie as blissful sleep takes over;

Flashes of my life passes me by,

As I count my pulse, now getting slower.

Thats it, this is the end I know,

I feel the darkness pull me in;

Don’t cry for me when i’m gone,

This is me commiting my sweetest sin.

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Awards…

A few days back a fellow blogger of mine Allwin Bright nominated me for not one but two blogger awards.

It took me a while to finally post this because of my on going exams but here I am finally accepting the

two awards he nominated me for.

I am highly honored that Allwin felt I deserved these awards and I would like to thank him from the bottom of my heart.

Here is a link to his blog:

http://allwinbrightwrites.wordpress.com/

Do visit his blog and read through his heartfelt posts,

The rules that need to be followed are:

Display the Award Certificate on your website

Announce your win with a post and link to whoever presented your award

Present 15 awards to deserving bloggers

Drop them a comment to tip them off after you’ve linked them in the post

Post 7 interesting things about yourself.

So here are my nominations…

http://sensuousamberville.wordpress.com

http://mythoughtsonthesubjectareasfollows.wordpress.com

http://yourinnerfeathersbyruby.wordpress.com

http://meirozavian.wordpress.com

Seven things about myself are…

1. I love the color black.

2.I am deadly addicted to chocolates.

3.I am very short tempered

4.I am a bit claustrophobic

5.I seem to have two left feet 😦

6.I absolutely adore my pet dog

7.I am not a morning person at all..

Bleeding Love

I know exactly what you think,
You think that I have gone insane.
But is it right for you to judge,
When you’re so ignorant of my pain.

I told you once, I told you twice,
I told you every night and day.
I swore to you my love, my life,
Still you fooled me all the way.

I gave to you all that I had,
My heart, body, soul and mind.
Tried to make you see my side of things,
How could you have been so blind?

You left me standing helpless,
But what else can I do.
How can I move on with life,
When I’m still in love with you.

I tried to erase the scars you left,
But your memories won’t fade away.
I carved your name on my soul with love,
And that fire still burns me everyday.

The Fallen One

I’m addicted to you

Addicted to your lies

To the dark promise behind your words

To the ice-cold of your eyes.

Your love like poison in my veins

Violating me to my very core

Your kisses like fire on my skin

You leave me desperate wanting more.

Your smile, it haunts my every dream

Your voice, my every waking hour

Your touches burn me down to ash

To fight you I don’t have the power.

You’re a dark angel my love

A fallen one, a broken soul

It’s dangerous what I feel for you

Your love consumes me whole

Sweet Dreams are made of this..

It is dark in here, a pitch black room,
I’m hiding from the sun.
The light disrupts the endless calm,
This void that my life has become.

I hear the voices calling me,
They’re telling me to unlock the door.
They try to seep in through the cracks,
Ready to unleash the pain in store.

I close myself and shut them out,
My tears still falling like rain.
The air around so thick with fear,
It’s bound to leave a stain.

No stop!!! Just stop I’m begging now,
These nightmares won’t go away.
Those footsteps keep coming closer and closer,
 To escape I can find no way.

The numbness sings a sweet lullaby,
My need to fight it deep.
I lie awake keeping me conscious,
I’m just too afraid to fall asleep.

randomaveragegirl

You make me smile when I’m feeling down,
I throw these fits but you never frown;
You’re a little piece of my dreams come true,
You’re the reason everyday I feel brand new.

You think I’m pretty even drenched in rain,
My makeup spoiled, my face all stained;
You laugh at all my senseless jokes,
Buy me chocolates even though you’re broke.

You can hear me ramble all night long,
And God knows for that you gotta be strong;
You always come wash away my tears,
Everytime you’re beside me I know that you care.

Every step I take you’re always there,
You tell me to move on without a fear;
You leave me restless when you’re not around,
Loving you is a miracle that I’ve found.

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Just Friends

What would you do if you fell in love with your best friend? This is something I could never get an answer to. Most of us have crushed on our friends and then there are people who have had the bad experience of being ‘friend zoned’. In my opinion there is nothing more distressing than being caught up in an unrequited romance with a friend of yours.

The point is that it is very easy to fall for someone like that. When you’re with a person for so long; a person who understands you and supports you, it is but obvious that you end up liking him/her. But then there is always the danger of “what if ?”

“What if he doesn’t like me back? ” or “What if it destroys our friendship?” So what would you do if put in the same situation-

“Would you rather tell a friend you love him and lose the friendship or forever keep your silence and suffer a lifetime of lies?”

 

Redemption

Lying down on my bed,

My life all drained I’m feeling sore;

I never thought it’ll come to this,

But I’m not sorry anymore.

 

You left me shattered to my core,

You made me hollow from inside;

I blamed myself for your mistakes,

When all you did was make me cry.

 

You crushed my soul and raped my faith,

You left me standing in disgrace;

Your gentle touches now I fear,

Your loving words now make me sick.

So come hurt me again….

 

Today I forgive all your sins,

I’m letting go of my suffering;

I just want out of this bad romance,

Now all I seek is deliverance.

 

I’m still lying on my bed,

I’m drowning now in my pool of red;

I’m free of you, free of your lies,

Flying now as I die.

Cause you can’t hurt me again…..

The Expressionless

A few days ago I came across this article on the internet that I would like to share. I cannot say how true it is but it definitely left me speechless.

“In June of 1972, a woman appeared in Cedar Senai hospital in nothing but a white, blood-covered gown. Now this, in itself, should not be too surprising as people often have accidents nearby and come to the nearest hospital for medical attention. But there were two things that caused people who saw her to vomit and flee in terror.

The first being that she wasn’t exactly human. she resembled something close to a mannequin, but had the dexterity and fluidity of a normal human being. Her face, was as flawless as a mannequins, devoid of eyebrows and smeared in make-up.

She had a kitten clenched in between her teeth, her jaws clamped so unnaturally tightly around it to the point where no teeth could be seen, the blood was still squirting out over her gown and onto the floor. She then pulled it out of her mouth, tossed it aside and collapsed. From the moment she stepped through the entrance to when she was taken to a hospital room and cleaned up before being prepped for sedation, she was completely calm, expressionless and motionless. The doctors thought it best to restrain her until the authorities could arrive and she did not protest. They were unable to get any kind of response from her and most staff members felt too uncomfortable to look directly at her for more than a few seconds.

 But the second the staff tried to sedate her, she fought back with extreme force. Two members of staff had to hold her down as her body rose up on the bed with that same, blank expression.

She turned her emotionless eyes towards the male doctor and did something unusual. She smiled.As she did, the female doctor screamed and let go out of shock. In the womans mouth were not human teeth, but long, sharp spikes. Too long for her mouth to close fully without causing any damage…

 The male doctor stared back at her for a moment before asking “What in the hell are you?” She cracked her neck down to her shoulder to observe him, still smiling.There was a long pause, the security had been alerted and could be heard coming down the hallway.

 As he heard them, she darted forward, sinking her teeth into the front of his throat, ripping out his jugular & letting him fall to the floor, gasping for air as he choked on his own blood. She stood up and leaned over him, her face coming dangerously close to his as the life faded from his eyes.

 She leaned closer and whispered in his ear.

“I…am….God….”

The doctors eyes filled with fear as he watched her calmly walk away to greet the security men. His last ever sight would be watching her feast on them one by one.

 The female doctor who survived the incident named her “The Expressionless”.

There was never a sighting of her again. “

What do you think? Can it be just a made up story or was she really ‘GOD’ ?

Letters to ‘YOU’- Part 2

Hey,

        I don’t know if you read my previous letter or if you are going to read this one but I just had to do this. I needed to let out all the frustration and anger in some way and writing to you seemed the perfect method. After all you need to know the hell you put me through.

It is just that I know you will never accept your fault and it infuriates me even more. I still remember that time; it is clear as ice. Your betrayal felt like somebody had punched a hole right through my chest and I couldn’t breathe. I would wake up every morning hyperventilating, my face smeared with tears from the last night.  I had to practically tell myself not to break down in front of everyone. I was numb; pain was my only solace.

Why didn’t you answer any of my calls? Was it that hard to help me out of my misery? I didn’t even realise that I was depressed till one day I looked into the mirror and didn’t recognise the girl looking back at me. Can you imagine that pain?

Today I want you to know that I am better now. I have real friends who won’t leave me in need. I won’t say I am over you because I’m not but I can assure you that one day I will erase you completely from my life.  This is the last time I am writing to you. I wish you all the best for your future. Goodbye and good luck…