Talk to me in riddles
Whisper in my ears
Kiss me till I feel no pain
Take away my fears.
I want to fall into your arms
Fall until I’m lost
Make me forget all my sins
Exorcise my past.
When I’m with you I feel alive
My body is on fire
Your kisses burn into my soul
Your voice fuels my desire.
You are the pill that keeps me sane
Drive my demons away
Your love binds my broken heart
Makes me stronger each day.
She stood there alone, unfazed by the storm around her. The cold of the pouring rain seeped right through the thin fabric covering her body sending chills up her spine. But she refused to move.
No…she will not move until he returned.
He had to come. He had said so in the last letter he wrote to her. It was their daughter’s first birthday and he promised he’d come.
It had been hours but she kept standing at her doorstep, her eyes glued to the corner of the street looking; waiting for the familiar car to turn up miraculously. They had been having some problems recently but she loved him. She wanted to make it up to him, to apologise for all the times they had fought. She wanted to make a new beginning.
Suddenly she felt a movement in her peripheral vision. She squinted trying to see through her tear filled eyes. It was Brent, he was her husband’s best friend. He held a gift package and a letter in his hands. The sudden realisation that her husband was not going to come hit her hard, he had sent Brent instead to deliver the package.
She stood up calm and poised, refusing to break down in front of this stranger.
He handed over the contents in his hands without a word. She looked down at the box. Yes, it was from her husband. She turned to the letter and froze.
It wasn’t from her husband, it had the army seal on it. She opened the letter with shaking hands.
Three words and she broke down with heart breaking sobs.
Three words and she knew her world will never be the same.
Three words….
Killed in action.
p.s. This is the first time I’m trying to write a prose so please bear with me 🙂
A shattered family portrait
A pillow stained with tears
The raised voices and shattered hopes
As innocence simply stares.
I’m scared daddy please don’t fight
I just can’t take it no more
Why can’t we be a happy family
Just like we were before.
I close myself and shut them out
As I hear her silently weep
I find a sanctuary in my bed
And cry myself to sleep.
No, mommy please don’t cry
Look what I made for you
I swear I’d be a good girl
Together we’ll make it through.
I know exactly what you think,
You think that I have gone insane.
But is it right for you to judge,
When you’re so ignorant of my pain.
I told you once, I told you twice,
I told you every night and day.
I swore to you my love, my life,
Still you fooled me all the way.
I gave to you all that I had,
My heart, body, soul and mind.
Tried to make you see my side of things,
How could you have been so blind?
You left me standing helpless,
But what else can I do.
How can I move on with life,
When I’m still in love with you.
I tried to erase the scars you left,
But your memories won’t fade away.
I carved your name on my soul with love,
And that fire still burns me everyday.
It is dark in here, a pitch black room,
I’m hiding from the sun.
The light disrupts the endless calm,
This void that my life has become.
I hear the voices calling me,
They’re telling me to unlock the door.
They try to seep in through the cracks,
Ready to unleash the pain in store.
I close myself and shut them out,
My tears still falling like rain.
The air around so thick with fear,
It’s bound to leave a stain.
No stop!!! Just stop I’m begging now,
These nightmares won’t go away.
Those footsteps keep coming closer and closer,
To escape I can find no way.
The numbness sings a sweet lullaby,
My need to fight it deep.
I lie awake keeping me conscious,
I’m just too afraid to fall asleep.
“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”
-Neil Gaiman
p.s. I just had to share this one..
I never knew it felt so good,
This sweet friction: cold metal on skin;
The ragged blades create a deep crevasse,
The pure satisfaction takes you in.
I watch as the ruddy drops fall down slowly,
Creating a vast ocean of red;
What was once the life coursing through my veins,
Is now the remnant of my pain and dread.
I feel my heart beat slowing down,
The sound now echoes through the room;
I’m wondering why I feel no pain,
Is it supposed to end so soon?
No remorse, no guilt, no sorrow,
I lie as blissful sleep takes over;
Flashes of my life passes me by,
As I count my pulse, now getting slower.
Thats it, this is the end I know,
I feel the darkness pull me in;
Don’t cry for me when i’m gone,
This is me commiting my sweetest sin.
P.s. This is a repost of a previous post with some editing done.. 🙂
Would you still love me
if I told you I wasn’t perfect.
Would you hold me tight
if I told you I was weak.
Would you wrap me in your arms
and tell me I’m alright.
Would you let my tears stain your shirt
when your arms are what I seek.
Would you steal away my pain
and help me heal this broken heart.
Would you whisper sweet nothings
just to see me smile.
Would you stay with me forever
and never let me fall apart.
Would you still love me
if I told you I was damaged beyond repair.
Would you still love me
or just let me go.
Would you be there for me
I wish there was a way to know..
My Apologies
I’m sorry that I loved you,
I’m sorry that I cared.
I’m sorry you didn’t give a damn,
If I had known, I wouldn’t have dared.
I’m sorry for supporting you,
I’m sorry for being a friend.
I’m sorry you saw me as an available resource,
You gave me scars that will never mend.
I’m sorry for being your shadow,
I’m sorry for sharing your pain.
I’m sorry you preferred to betray me,
You were the drug that kept me sane.
I’m sorry for not seeing the real you,
I’m sorry for being so blind.
I’m sorry for overlooking your faults in love,
Was I so out of my mind.
So here I stand, face-to-face,
I’m taking all I gave.
You were right, I’m guilty of trusting you,
This shame I’ll take to my grave.
Hence, my apologies….
I’m falling again,
Spiraling down the depths of hell.
Back to where it all began,
Still lonely, still trying to mend.
I’m addicted again,
Your poison lies take over me.
Intoxicated by the fear and the pain,
Silently wishing for it to end.
I’m lost again,
A dark cloud looms over me.
These feelings I cannot restrain,
Left blinded in this world of pretend.
I’m guilty again,
For crimes that cannot be forgiven.
Standing in the midst of this pouring rain,
I’m falling over and over again.
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