The Girl who killed herself

Don’t talk to her
She’s in too deep
Drowning in her own pain.

Her eyes are empty
An endless void
A reflection of her life.

She can’t sleep
She can’t eat
Just keeps awaiting her doom.

Everyday
A new mask
Everyday
A new pretense.

Lost in her own nightmares
She murdered her hopes
Strangled her joy.

No tears shed
For this living corpse
No remorse
For her bleeding heart.

That’s how she lives
That’s who she is
The girl who killed herself.

Words

A piece of paper

is all he left me

A letter and empty places

An empty bed

and an empty heart

Guess he was a coward

to run like this

A coward

not to face me

He had no right to hurt me so

To leave me with just words

Five words worse than- “It’s over”

Five words..

“It’s not you it’s me”

A Song for a Broken Heart

Suddenly you say you’re leaving,

Suddenly our love means nothing at all;

I wonder why you didn’t tell me sooner,

Give me a warning to break my fall.

–

Now you tell me we’ve got nothing left,

Swear that she loves you more than I;

You say that my pleads don’t work on you,

And blame that my tears are but a lie.

–

What can I say to make you stay,

What can I say to make you mine;

All I can do is watch you leave,

And soothe my heart that I’ll be fine.

–

There will be no more crying for you,

My tears have all run dry;

I will survive without you here,

This is our last goodbye.

Let Me Sleep

You do not know mother,

how hard it has been:

to love as people go

taking pieces of me as they leave.

You cannot know,

what it does to me.

To be emptying stomach

in bright lit places.

Sleeping with strangers,

burning my insides,

just to sleep.

I feel mother you sorrow,

I failed myself too: 

As my face falls,

I watch just as helpless as you.

Collecting hair

from crimson rivulets

over ceramics,

and father’s hopes,

off marred skin.

Let me sleep mother,

for a while more; 

It’ll pass,

let’s hope.

-Courtesy of a very good friend and writer 🙂

Save Me

Save me

I’m falling apart

Save me

If you can

I’m drowning in

This sea of lies

A lost cause

A broken soul

My empty eyes

Crave for love

My sad smile

Hides the pain inside

Hold me tight

Don’t let me go

Save me

While there’s still time.

Family Portrait

A shattered family portrait

A pillow stained with tears

The raised voices and shattered hopes

As innocence simply stares.

I’m scared daddy please don’t fight

I just can’t take it no more

Why can’t we be a happy family

Just like we were before.

I close myself and shut them out

As I hear her silently weep

I find a sanctuary in my bed

And cry myself to sleep.

No, mommy please don’t cry

Look what I made for you

I swear I’d be a good girl

Together we’ll make it through.

Bleeding Love

I know exactly what you think,
You think that I have gone insane.
But is it right for you to judge,
When you’re so ignorant of my pain.

I told you once, I told you twice,
I told you every night and day.
I swore to you my love, my life,
Still you fooled me all the way.

I gave to you all that I had,
My heart, body, soul and mind.
Tried to make you see my side of things,
How could you have been so blind?

You left me standing helpless,
But what else can I do.
How can I move on with life,
When I’m still in love with you.

I tried to erase the scars you left,
But your memories won’t fade away.
I carved your name on my soul with love,
And that fire still burns me everyday.

The Fallen One

I’m addicted to you

Addicted to your lies

To the dark promise behind your words

To the ice-cold of your eyes.

Your love like poison in my veins

Violating me to my very core

Your kisses like fire on my skin

You leave me desperate wanting more.

Your smile, it haunts my every dream

Your voice, my every waking hour

Your touches burn me down to ash

To fight you I don’t have the power.

You’re a dark angel my love

A fallen one, a broken soul

It’s dangerous what I feel for you

Your love consumes me whole

Sweet Dreams are made of this..

It is dark in here, a pitch black room,
I’m hiding from the sun.
The light disrupts the endless calm,
This void that my life has become.

I hear the voices calling me,
They’re telling me to unlock the door.
They try to seep in through the cracks,
Ready to unleash the pain in store.

I close myself and shut them out,
My tears still falling like rain.
The air around so thick with fear,
It’s bound to leave a stain.

No stop!!! Just stop I’m begging now,
These nightmares won’t go away.
Those footsteps keep coming closer and closer,
 To escape I can find no way.

The numbness sings a sweet lullaby,
My need to fight it deep.
I lie awake keeping me conscious,
I’m just too afraid to fall asleep.

Redemption

Lying down on my bed,

My life all drained I’m feeling sore;

I never thought it’ll come to this,

But I’m not sorry anymore.

 

You left me shattered to my core,

You made me hollow from inside;

I blamed myself for your mistakes,

When all you did was make me cry.

 

You crushed my soul and raped my faith,

You left me standing in disgrace;

Your gentle touches now I fear,

Your loving words now make me sick.

So come hurt me again….

 

Today I forgive all your sins,

I’m letting go of my suffering;

I just want out of this bad romance,

Now all I seek is deliverance.

 

I’m still lying on my bed,

I’m drowning now in my pool of red;

I’m free of you, free of your lies,

Flying now as I die.

Cause you can’t hurt me again…..