Staring at the nothingness ahead of me,
I walk into it, wanting nothing to be found.
Standing by a volcano which once erupted light,
I am scared what if it comes back to life.
When the demonic silence speaks volumes,
I listen intently; finding my way through invisible crossroads.
And then being my savior,
The light of darkness finally dawns upon me.
Don’t talk to her
She’s in too deep
Drowning in her own pain.
Her eyes are empty
An endless void
A reflection of her life.
She can’t sleep
She can’t eat
Just keeps awaiting her doom.
A new mask
A new pretense.
Lost in her own nightmares
She murdered her hopes
Strangled her joy.
No tears shed
For this living corpse
For her bleeding heart.
That’s how she lives
That’s who she is
The girl who killed herself.
I miss you my dear ball of fur…
Oh how you’ve grown up; no more the same little thing that used to climb in bed with me and snatch away my pillow to use it as your mattress.
No more chewed footwear or torn cushions. No…you are lazier now 😛
You make me want to rush home and hug you. It is my favorite stress buster.
I love you my one true love…my Zoe. ❤
Twenty pink roses and the 23 year old curse was broken….. Teddy bears, chocolates and roses, what more can a girl ask for on her birthday 😀 A dedication video made by two of my very good friends, all the planning and scheming behind my back and two bloody cakes…. no doubt my 23’rd year started with a bang!! It was fun, it was great; I did miss my parents but I’m gonna go meet them this weekend 🙂 Sorry for not putting up anything for the past two days but I was still hung up on all the sugar I consumed. I’m going to make use of my newly acquired journal my friend gave me and probably come up with something good soon 🙂 Till then God Bless..
I have spent a lot of my time worrying about true love. Who will he be? When will I find him? Will he like me? I used to think that it was the hardest thing to do but then this very evening I saw a mother give birth to her baby while posted in the OBGYN department. She had been in labor for hours, was in pain, exhausted and there was a lot of blood 😦
Finally she gave birth to a beautiful baby girl. Then it happened…she looked at her child for the first time and that look on her face was pure love; love for her newborn baby. It felt like she had momentarily forgotten all about her pain and despair; like her baby was the center of her world and nothing else mattered. It was then I realized that I had already found true love the day I was born.
The first thing I did after that was to call my mom and tell her how much I loved her. I don’t know why we spend years trying to find the meaning of love when it is right there in front of us. A mother’s love is unconditional and one that is easily ignored by us. If you haven’t told your mom what she means to you, I request you do it today. Tell her how much you appreciate everything that she has done for you. It will make her day I can assure you.
Then one day it dawned on me: If my value to others hinged on what I’d do for them, then their approval of me was of no real value. So I did myself a favor. I learned to say no to all favors but those I could do with a giving heart.— Sandra Kring
My inability to say no is one of the biggest tragedies of my life. Add to it my fear of rejection and you get a perfect pushover. Earlier it was just to please people around me but eventually it became a habit and now I just can’t say no.
It had come to a point where people’s perspective of me became everything. I stopped being myself and turned into a pseudo someone that my peers wanted me to be. I know it is not a good place to be and I’m still fighting to turn things around though I’m not sure if I’ll succeed. What can I do?
To say that it is one of my favorite quotes would be a major understatement. I’ll have to admit the question of whether one should fall in love or not is something everyone has contemplated in their lives. I for one am very skeptical about it. So I want to know what you think. Is taking the risk worth it?